I just wanted to say that I am sorry if I offended you with my previous writing. That was never my intention and I now realize that I wasn't clear.
I work very hard not to judge others in any way, this is one part of my Quaker practice. I listen to God speaking to me where I am at this moment in my life. How others choose to live is up to them, but I need to listen to what is right for me.
During my time in the urban area, I was delighted to discover that I, for the first time, was not overcome with feelings of worry and neglect over what my husband and I were "not" providing for our children. It was the first time I was not slightly embarrassed by our very old and a bit beat up Suburban and our not stylish clothing.
I grew up in this busy lifestyle of achieving with the purpose of earning money to buy a home, cars, and shop. And I also grew up with a loving family. The two can certainly co-exist. But I was not brought up with the idea that there are other ways to live. Many family members do judge our family and wonder what in the world we are doing and do not understand.
I was simply struck with the pleasant realization that I had grown enough in my own life choices where that last bit of longing had ceased. It was a nice feeling.
Warm wishes, Tonya