How come I am always so hard on myself, my husband and my family? Why can't I just accept things as they are?
The love, joy, and simplicity of our life - shouldn't that be enough?
Why do I crave for a neat house, both inside and out, a neat chicken coop with fencing that keeps the chickens in, for more fenced in area for the goats, for gardens prepared that will provide our family's vegetables, for some time to sew and knit, for time to get to all of the painting jobs that need to be done?
I did get the peas planted today, for that I should be grateful, right?
Shouldn't I be grateful for all of the amazing gifts God has given me? - a home, supportive husband, seven healthy children, soil and seeds, a healthy body to prepare healthy meals (oh and for the healthy food we are able to buy) - and coltsfoot weed left by my laptop by a sweet daughter.
Why do I wish we could save more money so we could solve our car dilemma (an eight seater with nine children)? Shouldn't I just be grateful that God has provided enough to pay our bills, tithe, and still go out for an icecream from time to time.
Why do I get frustrated with my husband who is not a planner and organizer like I am? Why can't I just appreciate that he is content and happy right where he is and is still more than willing to start a new project when I express a need.
Why can't I be reassured that with a six month old it is ok to not be able to do the extras right now and instead soak up these precious moments?
I have been grumpy these last couple of weeks - I have been much too hard on myself and my family with expectations that are mine alone and not realistic.
This week I need to practice gratitude each moment. I need to get out of this slump I am in and instead rejoice in the gifts and practice contentment because I know, I really do know that God gives us exactly what we need.